Tonight was the yearly Christmas party with the therapy group I work for. As I was leaving, it hit me like a ton of bricks of how I got here and how God worked in my life before I ever thought to realize it.
2 years ago, I was working with a different group in Central Arkansas. I loved it, but was really thinking that I needed to go home, to Memphis, for a change of pace and to spend more time with my family. I knew on moving day that I had made a bad decision. I sold my house and left my job under the assumption that I would be starting my new job the next week … 3 months later I finally started. It was not what I had envisioned and I only stayed there for 2.5 months.
After realizing that things were falling apart, I sent out resumes and had 2 interviews in Northwest Arkansas (NWA) on a Thursday/Friday and 2 more interviews on Monday in Dallas. The first place I went to, I knew instantly that I wasn’t supposed to be there. The second interview was with my current group. I knew IMMEDIATELY that I was supposed to be here. I was SO sure that I cancelled my interviews in Dallas and immediately came back to Northwest Arkansas to look for an apartment – and so here I have been for the last 27 months.
Tonight really hit home of how thankful I am that, through bad decisions, God turned it around and got me to where I am now. If I wasn’t here, I would never have attempted this adoption. If I wasn’t here, I would never had gone to China in the first place. Being here has given me the ability to help children, not only in my community but, across oceans and around the world.
Being in NWA when I got here gave me perfect timing to meet a precious little girl who stole my heart. A sweet child in foster care and hospice … and difficult combo. This little girl lit up every time I saw her and was making amazing gains. However, a seizure caused her to aspirate and she was unable to recover. This little girl changed my perspective on my job and made me realize how short life can be – as well as how full we need to make it when we can. The amazing part, her name and Sunshine’s name have the same meaning. It was God giving me a little wink, reassuring me that this adoption is meant to be.
These last few weeks have been very hard for me, as evidenced by my last post. But tonight reminded me not only of why I do what I do, but that there are people who are with me throughout this journey of which I am embarking.